An Introduction
N.K. 16. 280389.
'Don't act like you know me 'cause you recognize me'
Dancing On My Own
I remember,
We were living like kings and queens
In a tiny little castle
Made of hopes and dreams.
It was destiny, meant to be
We were so complete, the perfect team
Angry person beside me playing a violent game on her android now
Hey, I was angry first! You're to blame.
Why does my anger anger you?
We had a pretty mundane yet oddly amusing conversation on the way home,
the three of us.
P: -pats on my head- short short
Me : I'm not that short
W: Your height is fine at this age, but you'll look ridiculous when you're old or with a tall boyfriend
Me: Huh? That's ok. He can carry me then so I won't walk so much and get tired.
P: Then you're his child, not a girlfriend
Ah hahahahah
I found that interesting.
I very much think that I should head over to the hospital for a check up
What with all this pain I've been experiencing.
But I'm so, so very scared of the results, see.
I've seen post-surgery photos.
It's scary, it freaks me out.
And I get paranoid that maybe, in the long future,
I'll have to go through that myself.
But I pray it is not that serious.
But I'll never know till I head over.
Afraid. Fear cripples me.
Today I flared up at someone,
I half-screamed (my voice is only so loud) my reasonings for defence,
Then I was quiet afterwards. Not a word.
And I am proud to declare this,
Not that I am happy to have possibly be rude or hurt someone
But because I have not felt angry for a long time
After a long period of feeling so empty,
I suddenly felt so very human
I am priceless
This post was written to mock myself, really.
I have a huuuuuuuge appetite, no doubt.
More food = $$
I have an astonishingly expensive taste when it comes to fashion
Clothing, fashion, design = $$$
I don't get sick often but when I do, it's usually very serious
Treatment costs = $$$$$$$
I use/waste a lot of electricity + water
Utility bills = $$$
I still have many years of schooling ahead of me
Books, education = $$$
But then again, this relates to most people doesn't it ")
I just can't help but feel bad though.
Especially the eating part.
I'm sorry.
I was just so damn affected
When I realised that
There's something things I can't do
So many opportunities to be missed cos' of this.
If I had a list of 'Things to do before I die?'
My list would be pretty much shorter than the average people
But all in all,
I'm just pretty average anyways, aren't I?
Just a little more fragile.
Name: Lina